What Next?

Rogelio just called me from the Hospital, he was hurt at work and they are taking him to the Hopsital 70 miles away for an MRI. His boss is driving him in a 4wheel drive because the roads are so bad. This past year was so hard with my cousin dying of cancer, then my mom getting cancer and having surgery, then my own surgery at the end of Oct, and finding out after the fact that I had cancer cells! Now my sister has to have surgery and they found a small mass also. Man, it has been tough! Trying not to give into depression has been the very hardest. There are soooo many things to be thankful for. My mom is now doing wonderfully, she needs no other treatment and she has lost over 100lbs since a year ago Christmas. My surgery went great and I need no other treatment and I'm feeling 100% better than I did the last few months. But those things are still stressful and I can feel it emotionally and physically. I am having trouble staying focused and I'm not finishing tasks that I need to. I'm exhausted but haven't done anything physical to be exhausted! I know those signs well and I'm determined not to give into the dark side! I haven't used my cave (what my dh calls our bedroom because it has black out shades so he can sleep after working nights) for months which is a good thing but some days I sure want to!! The snow and cold weather have made it much easier to stay inside and not go anywhere also. I will survive this winter and I will emerge a stronger and better person! I think just writing out how I am feeling might be of some help. I wish I could figure this blogging out right tho, I feel stupid because it says it is so easy but I don't get it! LOL My posts aren't on the same page like the others I have read. They are under archives. Live and learn I guess, or die trying!